Normally I can keep it together fairly well.  I don't have breakdowns when people quiz me about when I'm going to have a baby or when they ask what's the hold up.  However, yesterday my husband put me on speaker phone so I could talk to a friend of ours, which happens to also be a co-worker.  She's pregant and due in a few weeks, she got pregnant after trying for a month.  She knows we are trying and has been telling me to hurry up so we can be preggo buddies.  Obviously it's not happening.  Anyway, last night she was saying I better hurry because she won't be pregnant much longer and she really wanted someone to moan and groan with.  My husband was completely silent and I was also silent.  I think he caught on that I really wasn't in the mood to be all happy and joking about it so he just said "we are trying".  But no, that doesn't stop the topic, it just makes it worse.  Thankfully I was in my car driving during this and was able to have a mini moment with only the passing cars as witnesses.  Finally, my husband really got it that I was just not going to be all happy and social talking about our inability to "just get pregnant".  I think I was just tired and had a long day.  I'm also nervous and excited both about our appointment tomorrow to talk to the doc about starting IVF.  Normally I'm very tolerant, especially from this person because she is so nice and very sweet.  I think I was just having a moment...  Ok, I'm better. Ha-ha. 

I'll post again after tomorrow's appointment.  I hope it goes well.  Baby dust to all.