Long time most definitely! I come on a few times a week and read others journals, but never update my own. Life has been going pretty good. To be honest after seeing what happened in Haiti, it really makes me feel I have nothing to complain about! My boys are growing up and doing well. Caleb is still playing the cello and is diligent with his school work. So far he is entering his teens relatively calm and has not gone completely girl crazy. Azariah is becoming very lazy with his grades, and seems perfectly content with getting Cs or Bs. I have been withinholding his electronics and cutting in to his TV time, in hopes of motivating him to do better. I guess we will see when the next report cards come out, which should be soon. Micah has been doing really well, and I am very proud of him. He is getting better with being organized, but still has some ways to go. He is still doing homewok, and then forgetting to turn it in! Noah is still my polite, low-key, laid back little boy. He loves school, and loves to do well. He seems to catch on really quick, and he has a quiet sense of humor. When he teases, it comes out so innocent, you can't help but to laugh! Now Mr. Ayden, my baby, well let's just say he gives me a run for my money. He is very intelligent and wants to know how every thing works. He is a high strung little boy and loves all sports! He is definitely going to be my sports player. That boy is moving and in to something from the time he wakes until he goes to bed!   As for me, well what can I say? My job is going well, I still enjoy looking at human life as it developes. I can honestly say for the most part my job is very satisfying and I feel it is an important job. There are stressors involved in how things are being ran, for example I was sent to our new site and had to use an ultrasound machine, I had never laid eyes on in my life. It was very stressful because when the patient sees you fumbling with the machine, of course they then worry how good of a job are you going to do in making sure there baby looks healthy. The sucky part is I got through that day relatively okay, which was over a month ago, and I have not been back there every since. Yet this week, I am scheduled to go there, and I barely remember the machine at all! I am trying not to stress about it though.  My supervisor is nice enough but I and my coworkers definitely feel she lacks leadership.

Now, my lovelife.... well lets just say it has been interesting. I am still single and dating.  J and I this past month have gone on a couple of dates, testing the waters so to speak, but I am not ready to jump back in it with him. I still feel there are things he has to prove to me. I think the love has changed for both of us, yet we are both still afraid to completely let go. I have another guy whom I date, but it is very casual. I like him, but I think he may be a little bit of a Casanova. We have been hanging out since late September.  He is actually the first guy I dated after J and I split up. He is fun to be with, but I don't see a serious future for us. It does get lonely for me at times though. I miss being in a committed relationship, but I know I need this time. Well this entry has turned into a novel so I better end it! I will check back in soon! Love ya!