This is my first Journal or POST, anywhere in my life, so ladies, please be kind!

I am 35 (+ a little) and recently re-married (after being single for 14 years). I have a child who is almost 18. The bottom line is that my clock is ticking and I realize that I may not have a lot of time left to have another child. My new husband, who is the sweetest man in the world, has no children and I would like to have another-with him. He has expressed an interest in having a child but would never push me into anything. Besides I'm exceptionally headstrong and he couldn't push me into anything if he tried.

So, for the first time in my life I am having to learn all about my wonderful, female, body and how things work. I don't have a lot of reproductive years left and am dealing with quickly aging eggs, I have read. When I was 20 and got pregnant with my, now 17, child I didn't even have to think about getting pregnant. I think I was off the pill for 2 months, and that's all it took. Now I have age staring me in the face and am having to THINK about conception... the when to do it and how to do it, and monthly wondering of if we made the perfect choice of time and position. Only to find that even when all of the planets align we have less than a 25% chance anyway. Now it's much more than just "Doin' it". I have never considered myself an overachiever, or anything but I feel like I'm on a search for the Gold Medal and have no training to rely on.

I have explored adoption on my own (before I was even dating my husband) and had an adoptive placement that ended due to he child's particular circumstances. Adoption IS an option and my husband would be for that as well. However, having the experience of beng a mother I would like to make my own if it's still a possibility. There have to be other ladies out there who are in the same position. I thought that my diaper days were over but, I am so 'baby hungry' I could scream!

We're starting with the midstream OPK. If you want to hear something funny... I tested for a total of 11 days before I realized that I started WAY too early. I was beginning to think that besides being OLD: I wasn't ovulating AT ALL. I think I have realized that I have a LONG cycle; 35 days for the last few months that I have been watching. All of this is totally new to me!

Anyone wishing to laugh with me, at me, or generally HELP please post back! Both misery and ignorance LOVE company!

Lots of Baby Dust to you all!