Good evening girls,

Thanks for all the congrats & inquiries as to how I was doing. I'm still EXCITED and still NERVOUS! I rub my belly A LOT and talk to the bean and encourage him to stay put that he will be very loved if he does! I don't know if its silly or not but it makes me feel better to do so!

I feel like I have so much to catch up on. I was at my mom's (and did NOT tell her) yesterday and today so was missing out on so much here except quick peeks!

I had such a stressful morning yesterday. I was so worried. I guess cuz I woke up my BBs didn't hurt at all so I was worried that I was m/cing or something. And I had decided that I would go ask for a bloodtest that morning but then I was scared to. I went with bright BFPs in hand but last time I did that I got a negative on their cheapo pee test so this time I said No to their pee test & so the admin assistants there were almost mocking me & telling me that I was wrong last time (when in fact I was having a chemical) so that had me all upset & just shaking while I was waiting for my doctor. They are so clueless there. I felt like I had way more knowledge.

Anyways, I had to explain to my doctor why I wanted (demanded) a blood test to check progesterone levels & to make sure betas were going up. At first she argued with me because I guess its not policy to do a blood test in British Columbia, just the pee test but I basically explained to her what happened last time and insisted for my own sanity. So she agreed & then after that her bedside manner improved. But I was just shaking & upset all morning. So I got my blood test right away and I go and get the second one tomorrow morning. Those should both come back Friday (or monday) cuz they get sent out of town for analysis and then, hopefully then, I can breathe a sigh of relief!

But, by noon my BBs were aching again & I was feeling crampy & tired and today, sore BBs all day & cramps & back aches etc so I feel a bit more confident than I did yesterday. I just had a little breakdown I guess!

So anyways... I think all is progressing as it should be. Like I know what's normal. But I'm excited still. I think we'll be telling our family's sooner than later because once all the blood results are back, my doc has already referred me to a GYN (I have to have prenatal care 2 towns away cuz our town has no hospital & no doctors in my town do babies) Which is totally great - I'm all for having a specialist - what is going to expedite the matter is that my cousin works at the same hospital so I have to let the family know BEFORE they hear it accidentally.  So, in another week or so, once I feel a bit more confident. Maybe early December we'll be telling! Its just avoiding the few 'have a glass of wine' sessions before then.

Anyways my DH is home, I'm going to go visit with him & then we are both going our separate ways tonight, him to some men's thing & me to my Photo Club!

Goodnight!
Becky